The Moment

Trying to concentrate in an early morning class

little did I know my actual state of being

the only feeling I sense is Pain

I decide not to surrender, to its nasty intentions.

I find myself to be restless,

turning from right to left and left to right.

clenching  to anything I can reach.

I am unstable at the moment

bizarre thoughts overflowing from within.

I feel no good but worse every inch of myself.

Torn inside, I bleed.

Uncertainty gushing down my spine.

I decide not to fight back as strength fades away

I shiver, unable to manage the change

I seek support, though cannot trust

But this feeling is new I realise

of letting go

I know deep within, all these for a reason

Hope is still alive for peace

of promising times, yet to surprise me

I cling on to my patience

assuming it to be my companion

I regret no more 

Of my present state of being

as I no more dwell in the past

as I do not long for the future

But I am happy to be here 

Living my present.