From within

I find myself torn,

Something from within pulls me away.

I am distracted 

with life’s offerings.

I find myself sensitive,

breaking down now and then.

I know, I do not belong here.

They say I am anxious,

they say I am frowning,

Unhappy they see me all the time.

I feel the same,

I realize myself,

How things altered around me.

How I paved my way through it!

Now, here sitting in a room of fifty three,

I am feeling bizarre.

An urge from within

telling me to let go.

A voice from within

Asking me to catch hold of myself.

I want to be back,

I want myself back,

I want to become me once again.

Loving everyone around me, 

Celebrating the joy of life.

I want to dance,

Sing in glory to myself,

I want that moment to be back,

When I would see my reflection around me.

Walls smiling at me,

Encouraging me 

To move on.

I want to wear a genuine smile ,

Carrying it for a long time.

I want to reach heights

with no hesitation within.

I know I can,

I know I will.

Just seeking some time now.

Waiting for the chariot of time

to take pace in the whirlpool of life.

I am patient,

tolerant,

hopeful.

Here, I wait

with open arms.

To behold the beauty of being Alive.